HOPE && OPTIMISM

So yun, mag-eend na yung September. I know everyone's already worried about the upcoming deliberation which will happen few weeks from now. There were stories circulating in our class na may babagsak pa rin daw. However, it wasn't officially announced so I still hold on to the belief that it's a lie. Expecting the worst things now, won't be of help to any of us. And I guess the best thing that we could do is to try to be optimistic. We have to hope for the best, and sana maging effective lang talaga yung LAW of ATTRACTION. *fingers-crossed*

I feel sad whenever I remember na after next week, something's going to change na. Kanya kanyang buhay na yan after. I'm going to miss everyone. *sigh*

Dx: Paranoia!

I just wanna kill myself for being so sensitive-SLASH-paranoid most of the time! (KCl IV push. STAT!)

Napagsabihan yung group namin knina for not making our requirements. Ni isa walang may gumawa, ako lang, pero incomplete kase hindi talaga namin in-expect na i-cocollect yun. I felt so terrible for making that requirement, parang ang "TRAYDOR"  ko lang naman. Naiinis lang talaga ko kung bakit gumawa pa ko ng requirement! Bakit?!!!

As a consequence, gagawa kami ng case study for our patient to be submitted tomorrow agad. INCOMPLETE requirement, NO duty! Ang saya naman! :)

Australopithecus!

(yung title, parang nag-ccast kalang ng magic spell)

I'm BACK! Gawd! Had a severe abdominal pain. (TAKE NOTE: "SEVERE") Hindi ako nagpapaka-OA! Sobrang sakit nya! Para kang nakipagbreak ng sabay-sabay sa 27 boyfriends na sobrang minahal mo ng ilang dekada! (Yun ang OA) :D

I tried so hard na hindi mamatay, kase ampangit naman kung sa records ko, yung nakalagay na cause of death: abdominal pain lang! Nah! Walang thrill!

*Sigh! Sunday na naman! September na! Ilang tulog nalang Christmas na ulet! Exciting!

Ang saya-saya ko lang talaga today kase nakapag-internet na naman ako after ilang days! Yey! I'm so thankful talaga na sa ngayong panahon ako ipinanganak, e pano kung nung Stone Age ako nabuhay, san ako mag-tweet? sa mga bato?

At sino magbabasa ng mga status ko? SILA?!

If I would've existed million years ago, malamang hindi rin ako magtatagal sa sobrang katamaran ko! Pero somehow, na-appreciate ko pa rin yung way of life nung panahong to, first is hindi nila kailangan pag-aralan yung mga bagay which is not really needed for their survival! Second, sobrang simple ng buhay nila, walang top ten richest man, walang french fries and pepperoni pizza, walang iPad, in short, walang KA-ARTEHAN! Pero, COMPUTER AGE pa rin akooo! D'BEST! \m/

The BREAK-up

"The Break-Up" reminds me of you, us, how we used to be back then. Those stupid fights we had, exchanging awful words towards each other. Hindi ko na nga mabilang kung ilang BULLSH*T na ang tinanggap mo from me! And really, believe it or not, I want to apologize for being such a terrible partner!

I know I didn't play my part so well that it's one of the many reasons why we're in this kind of situation now. We're not even friends, we ignore each other na parang we're in two different planets, worse is, we turned out to be hating each other. Kumusta naman? Honestly, hindi ko na talaga sya nagugustuhan, kase lately, you've been occupying my thoughts. Parang every scene nalang na makita ko sa movie, reminds me of you. And yea, I have this UNRESOLVED feelings for you. I miss you, and how you you made me feel before we became total strangers.

Again, uulitin ko na naman and gusto ko lang ma emphasize na: I MISS YOU BUT I DON'T WANT YOU BACK! 

Hindi naman sa never na talaga, kase 'til now naman ikaw pa rin naman. And 'til now, parang gusto ko pa rin maniwala na one day, just one ordinary day, we'll see each other again, maybe on the streets pag both na tayong nasa Earth. We'll have some catching up, then we'll both realize na, we still want to be together after all. Okay enough, nakokornihan na ko. (FUN FACT: While I am making this blog, pinagdaraanan ko ang matinding sakit ng tiyan! PS: 7/10!)

At dahil sa sakit ng tiyan ko, nakalimutan ko na yung mga sasabihin ko! Bukas nalang, or maybe some other time. Need to get some rest now, this pain is killing me! Bye-bye!

The Hangover

Hey! Who wants to have a drink with us?

One day, I also want to wake up with a tiger in my room, missing finger or tooth (or both), maybe, a new hair style (ayaw la it kalbo, I totally I hate it) Uhm, well I might consider it also for the sake of trying something really kinda WEIRD! Hmm, being married to someone I don't even know is also kind of exciting.

One day, I want to wake up, totally screwed up and not remembering anything that happened the night before! (I promise to bring along my camera, so I'll have something to upload.)

A man doesn't actually need a lifetime, even just one day, one f***ing day to get a life that you want. It maybe, going on a world tour, get wasted, party all day, or even stay in your room and just do nothing (kanya kanyang trip lang yan). Ang sarap mabuhay when you are living your own life, and not the kind of life others want you to have. Totally free. No rules. 

Unfortunately, the kind of life that most of us wants, is inexistent. We have to behave the way other people wants us to. Sometimes, we have to say something totally opposite of what we really feel. That's the human world. The choice is ours to make. 

Be bad, and good guys will tell you, "hey! you suck!". Be good, and bad guys will tell you, "hey! you suck!" ALSO! Cool.

There you have it! So this is my way of saying I totally had fun watching "The Hangover 1 and 2"! Goodnight people, BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE! :)

It's funny. I can't remember anything, but when I woke u, I was kinda happy! -Teddy(#TheHangover2)

Define Optimism!

"EVERY NOW AND THEN - I FALL APART"

Yuuunnn! Haha! Total eclipse of the heart!

Let me start with, I feel so EMPTY tonight! Ngayong gabi lang naman! Ganito talaga ko paminsan-minsan. Nag-iinarte. Normal na sakin yun. Normal na yung maging feeling abnormal minsan! Kainis!

Ok na sana e! Love life? Walang commitment. Pero ang saya! Friends? I spent most of my time with them now kase nga diba single ako! Ok na lahat e. Ang saya, saya, saya na sana to the 10th power! Ang pagiging estudyante ko nalang ang sumisira ng mood ko ngayon. Nkaka-frustrate. Ngayon lang ako naging NEGATIVE ng ganito! Yun bang parang gusto ko ng maniwala na, BELOW AVERAGE ang IQ level ko! Nakaka-praning!

Almost everyone in the class gets good scores, except me! Whoa! Feeling biktima ako dba? OA! Haha. Anyways, yun, so ganon nga! I feel so BOBO! You know?!

Kelangan ko na talaga ng inpirasyon. ASAP! And by inspiration, I don't mean -- KALAGUYO! (Kalaguyo talaga?Haha). Maybe a piece empowering words from someone will do! Pilit na pilit nalang talaga yung paging optimistic ko ngayon! Sobrang kaplastikan na!

Enough Aimz! Baka mahawa na kayo sa kapraningan ko! Pampalabas lang ng sama ng loob. Yun lang! Bukas, Ok na ko!

Magandang umaga sayo!

Hasta La Vista!

Happy na ko ngaun kase wala kana! How's that for an opening? HAHA.

Ilang dekada na palang hindi ikaw ang dahilan ng mga wall posts at group message ko, know why? Kase you don't matter to me anymore. Yes! At dahil dun, parang gusto kong magpaparty everyday, kase finally, gumigising na ko every morning with peace of mind at hindi ikaw ang nasa isip ko. Literally, pain free! And gusto ko rin emphasize, na hindi na ko patay na patay sayo! Kuha mo?

Hindi rin ako galit sayo. Tao ka lang. You have you're imperfections. And I'm trying so hard to understand all of it. Ayokong magbitter-bitteran!

All I hope is sana maging okay ka always, kahit na there's something inside of me who wishes na pagsisihan mo ng bonggang bongga yung immaturity mo! Na sana marealize mo kung gano ka kalaking tanga for not recognizing the value of what we had! Na sanannnnnaaaa, tubuan ka ng marami at malalaking pimples all over your body! Gusto kung yung my PUS at pulang pula. Yung parang bulkan na gusto ng sumabog! Bwahaha!

Honestly, gusto ko pa rin maging okay ka. Palangga ko gad la geap ikaw. Ayeee! Haha. Ayusin mo sarili mo, para next time na magkita ulit tayo, sobrang gwapo mo na. At pwde ba? Wag ka magpapakalbo, kase hindi talaga bagay sayo. Promise!

This may hurt a little bit, pero I have to say this para makompleto naman yung speech ko. Hindi na talaga kita mahal gaya ng dati, and I'm saying this hindi lang para masaktan ka, but it's what I truly feels. I already stopped needing you in my existence. Tinanggal na rin kita sa, things-to-do list ko. In other words, wala ka na sa systema ko. Ok na ko ngaun. I'm so much better without you. Minsan, namimiss parin kita, pero hanggang dun nalang yun. Kung may pagmamahal pa man na natitira ngayon, it's still not enough para balikan kita.

Few months ago,  I was asked, "What have you gained when you lost him?" At sabi ko. "I gained nothing but pain." [Bitter] Pero if I will be asked the same question now? Eto sagot ko: "When I lost him, I gained my self again!" O ha?

Nevertheless, I learned a lot of things from that one year! You made me feel how it is to be truly in love. I never thought that I could love someone, the way I have loved you. Ay grabe! Patay na patay gud liwat ak adto haim! Haha. The joy, excitement and happiness was all worth the pain. I don't regret any of the things I did for you. You're still one of the best things that ever happened to me.

For now, ayaw muna kitang makita kase baka makalimutan ko na hindi na pala kita mahal. But you can still call me if you miss me. [Feeler. Haha]

 I'd love to see you again someday, with your T-square and plates. Successful, responsible, a fully-grown man and loved by the girl truly made for you.

I'm glad you came along. 
THANK YOU!

-- B2. <3

A Free Sprited Homo Sapiens

Stayed in my room for 48hours! Random things keep going in and out of my freaking head. Things like, how will I get that CANON EOS 550D without completely selling my soul to the demons. I've been thinking about money, investments, business and reading "how will I become rich?" articles. Also, I've been browsing photographer's profile, and realizing how I badly want to be just like them. Sigh!

It's in my wish list!

And by the way, I got 3 days sanction for not reporting in school during the first day of classes. And on the second day, I was 27minutes late. Consequently, I have to face her, that woman who terrifies students with her incredibly horrifying gawk!  She told me, that she will be keeping an eye on me, which she also say to every  student who makes a not-so-pleasant impression to her. I wonder, how on earth will she be able to do that.  Well, I will surely be keeping an eye on her, while keeping an eye on me. She scares me. Guess, 90% of the population felt the same sentiments that I have. Hey Ma'am! I'll be as nice as possible, so I won't have to talk to you again. 

 Tomorrow's going to be the start of the true battle. 6 days in school, and I will absolutely be very busy on the things that I hate the most such as waking up early, trying really hard to understand my lessons, and of course pretending to be listening during discussions. However, no matter how I badly dislike these things, I will surely miss this. So for now, I'll try to enjoy every single day of my last  semester in my beloved school. 

Moreover, I'm currently trying to acquire that skill of not being scared to anything or anybody. I want to be - unrestricted, uncontrolled, FREE! Worrying about the things that are nonexistent is completely stupid and useless.


That's all for now! 

The Summer 2011 Escapade

We ended our summer with a blast! My friends and I (by the way we call ourselves, The Castaways), went to one of the most popular tourist attraction in Matalom, Leyte -- The Canigao Island!

Canigao Island

Tacloban to Matalom is a 3hour trip. Fare is P200.00/head via a public utility van (Van Vans). From the highway we rode in a pedicab (P5.00 fare) going to the area where we could rent pump boats going to the Island. Matalom to Canigao Island is a 15minute trip, and we paid P45.00 (back and forth) for the fare.

Pump Boat

It was almost 4:00pm when we reached the Island. We paid P20.00each for the entrance fee. And since there were no more cottages available for us, we opted to rent a tent for P300.00 and a mat for P80.00.

Tent

After setting up everything, we started going around the Island.  Small stores were already established where you can buy foods, drinks, souvenir items and some other things you might need. They use generator as a source of electricity.

The Castaways

So these are some of the few remarkable things we saw in the island.

The lighthouse. However, we didn't saw it's powerful flashing lights.

Summer Romance - Get a room please!

Jellyfish - Don't touch it.

Can't take his eyes off you!

Of course - The fine, white sand!

Corals everywhere!

Sea Urchin - You may now rest in peace!

Canigao Island -- At last! *phew*

And by the way, this trip wouldn't be this FUN without them --- THE CASTAWAYS!

The Splash!

One day, these things will be remembered as one fun-filled summer 2011. And that I would be one of those people who will be proud to say: Oh yes! I've been in Canigao Island!

The happiest people don’t have the best of it. They make the best of everything.

change.

 

            Few weeks from now I will no longer be introducing myself as “Hey guys, it’s me Aimz. 19 years of age.” Wow! It’s just so amazing that I was able to survive the different twists of life for 19 years! It was never easy, I tell you.

            I have survived different tests which made me who I am. Some of them made me better while others, well let’s just say made me a little worse, I suppose.

            As we grow older, we will encounter different circumstances and whether we like or not they will make alterations in our lives. The only choice that’s left is to accept that something’s always changes and we have to be ok with that.

            Seriously, I’m having a hard time dealing with the changes in my life now. Things are not as simple as I thought it is.

            I assumed when I made it through the pains I’ll be stronger. I was wrong. Life has a lot of dramas that could sometimes weaken us. Endless, I should say. And no matter how I’d love to stay strong, I can still associate my name to this word – VULNERABLE.

However, I always believe tomorrow’s going to be a great day. Goodnight fellow believers!