Happy na ko ngaun kase wala kana! How's that for an opening? HAHA.
Ilang dekada na palang hindi ikaw ang dahilan ng mga wall posts at group message ko, know why? Kase you don't matter to me anymore. Yes! At dahil dun, parang gusto kong magpaparty everyday, kase finally, gumigising na ko every morning with peace of mind at hindi ikaw ang nasa isip ko. Literally, pain free! And gusto ko rin emphasize, na hindi na ko patay na patay sayo! Kuha mo?
Hindi rin ako galit sayo. Tao ka lang. You have you're imperfections. And I'm trying so hard to understand all of it. Ayokong magbitter-bitteran!
All I hope is sana maging okay ka always, kahit na there's something inside of me who wishes na pagsisihan mo ng bonggang bongga yung immaturity mo! Na sana marealize mo kung gano ka kalaking tanga for not recognizing the value of what we had! Na sanannnnnaaaa, tubuan ka ng marami at malalaking pimples all over your body! Gusto kung yung my PUS at pulang pula. Yung parang bulkan na gusto ng sumabog! Bwahaha!
Honestly, gusto ko pa rin maging okay ka. Palangga ko gad la geap ikaw. Ayeee! Haha. Ayusin mo sarili mo, para next time na magkita ulit tayo, sobrang gwapo mo na. At pwde ba? Wag ka magpapakalbo, kase hindi talaga bagay sayo. Promise!
This may hurt a little bit, pero I have to say this para makompleto naman yung speech ko. Hindi na talaga kita mahal gaya ng dati, and I'm saying this hindi lang para masaktan ka, but it's what I truly feels. I already stopped needing you in my existence. Tinanggal na rin kita sa, things-to-do list ko. In other words, wala ka na sa systema ko. Ok na ko ngaun. I'm so much better without you. Minsan, namimiss parin kita, pero hanggang dun nalang yun. Kung may pagmamahal pa man na natitira ngayon, it's still not enough para balikan kita.
Few months ago, I was asked, "What have you gained when you lost him?" At sabi ko. "I gained nothing but pain." [Bitter] Pero if I will be asked the same question now? Eto sagot ko: "When I lost him, I gained my self again!" O ha?
Nevertheless, I learned a lot of things from that one year! You made me feel how it is to be truly in love. I never thought that I could love someone, the way I have loved you. Ay grabe! Patay na patay gud liwat ak adto haim! Haha. The joy, excitement and happiness was all worth the pain. I don't regret any of the things I did for you. You're still one of the best things that ever happened to me.
For now, ayaw muna kitang makita kase baka makalimutan ko na hindi na pala kita mahal. But you can still call me if you miss me. [Feeler. Haha]
I'd love to see you again someday, with your T-square and plates. Successful, responsible, a fully-grown man and loved by the girl truly made for you.
I'm glad you came along.
THANK YOU!
THANK YOU!
-- B2. <3
