Yoshke!

“You don’t quit just because you’re not happy at the moment. The whole point of being in a relationship is that you, at the very least, try to work it out.” That’s why it is a “relationship.” It’s a relationship between two people. It’s a collaborative effort.

Every couple has their ups and downs. And when you encounter the down-side of it, you don’t give up just like that. You talk. You listen. You weigh things over. You work it out." - http://www.yoshke.com

I don't want to forget that line so I copied it here :)

Forget the title, and just go read my blog.

Like most of you may know, I am not good in grammar and spelling or sentence structure, proper punctuation marks, or anything related to English, may it be basic or not.

But yea, I love to share whatever's on my head. I'm not just good in putting it into writings or whatever. I write the way I want. I don't care about the wrong grammars (because I don't notice them most of the time). 

I love to talk. And I have a lot to say about random things. 

Few minutes ago, I just came into realization how boring and unproductive I am for the past few months. Internet became my life. My closest friends or even those who are not close to me know how I am addicted to these things. I love my laptop so much. And you would usually hear me say something like: "Basta my laptop la, I will never get bored." and believe me, I could stay in my room for 3-4 days straight , and by stay I mean, I don't go out, literally. I just surf the net, broadcast my senseless thoughts on facebook or twitter mostly.

Gawd! I could remember kun gano ak ka waray sense na post hin status. Haha. And I'm trying to change that now. For I myself, have experienced how annoying it is to read statuses or tweets that are completely nonsense. (Hey, you can always post whatever you want, don't mind me, I just don't want to post whatever it is that's in my head, but you, you have every right to do it, for the very obvious reason that it is your account.) 

So, as I was saying, maybe tonight is where I finally came to a point where I could honestly say that my laptop (plus the internet connection) isn't going to give me the kind of fulfillment or happiness any human person wished for.

Earlier, I was watching the movie "That's What I Am". And I could hardly think of any word that would fit in here "I am a __________, that's what I am!" At this point in time, I really don't know what I wanted to do with my life. I have stopped doing the things that I love kase nga diba mas gusto ko lang mag surf ng internet! 

I could remember events in my life where I felt complete happiness and fulfillment. One, is when I was on my way home from Sta. Ana (it's a barangay located in La Paz, Leyte), it was already dark, I was tired because I was driving that motorcycle all day, going to places where I need to fix some stuff (SK and Youth Ministry stuff mostly). It was a really busy day, I have to wake up early and organize my To-Do-Lists, so I won't waste time going to the same place twice because I forgot something. So that night, while on the road, all I feel was happiness. Trust me, it's really different when you really love what you're doing. 

There was also this one time, I was in a bus, it was right after the youth camp, and the feeling was really overwhelming that I could not think of any word that would be enough to describe how happy I was at that very moment. I remember, telling myself , if I die, I want that to happen after serving a camp.

Modesty aside, I was once a very useful person in the society. I have lots of dreams and hopes for my fellowmen. I seriously would want to end poverty. I have all the time, willingness to join any activity or organization that is set to help others. I was really motivated to lend a hand to anyone in need in every way I could. I was a public servant, that's what I was. And now, I kinda missed the old me. I missed the busier version of me. 2009.

I remember my brother sharing to me this morning about how their caroling went. Kumadto daw hira harayo  na mga lugar, he even described to me how kamakalolooy an kabutang han mga tawo na ira ginkantahan. And after singing, they are the ones who will give presents for the household members instead. And he was telling me, "Sayang, waray ka lugod makaupod te." Yes, bro! Sayang! Waray na kase ak iba maram himuon yana kundi pairalon tak kahubya pirme! Haha. Gosh! 

And sa wakas, dahil nagsawa na rin ako sa kaka-internet babad! It's time for me to go out, and explore the world once again!

I already had so much time for myself, sobrang na spoil ko na nga eh. Now, I have to learn the art of DISCIPLINE again. And I can't promise I can do that quickly. I don't want to promise anything actually, this is just me, saying that I want change and I'll start with myself first. 

GROUP TWENTY!

It may sound baduy, chaka (or whatever pat itatawag hini hit mga MEAN girls - you know who you are! HAHA) Ok la, just need to let it out, just so everybody will know how much I appreciate and grateful na kamo an akon naging groupmates for this semester (hopefully, last sem na!)

To Melody, whose laugh makes me laugh. Most of the time, late ka kase na react, ada kapa matawa kun tapos na kami magtinawa! (Omaygadthisisgreat) HAHA. You're kindness and innocence (about P**N stuff) reminds me na mayda pa talaga mga WHOLESOME na tawo na nageexist yana. PS. Sana dire ka ma-impluwensyahan ni gaspang ky nag-iinupod ka ha iya. BTW, minsan nag wowonder talaga ak kun maram kaba mag-isog? Haha. 

To Ate Tina, thank you tanan na imo assistance na ginhatag akon han tanan na aton duty. For being so generous pagpahuram hin BP, thermometer, ruler, ballpen tas bisan ano nala. Thank you kay everytime na KSS ak, ada ka, atleast I know myda masalo haak kun dko makaya. Haha. Salamat ate! 

To Tin-tin, now I know, dire tanan na mga maghusay maglain it batasan. Haha. Okay kaman ngay-an. :) I like how you say "buyag" everytime matotopic kun pira na kamo ka months tim uyab. haha. Salamat kay tungod imo may nakakaupod ak pagsasakay ha tricycle kun duty kita (dire man gud napasakay kun usa la)  Stay beautiful inside and out.

To Mimi, magka-group ngay-an kita mi? Haha. Anay baga waray ak naremember na moment nat. HAHA. Balit, salamat ghap tanan na imo bulig ha akon. Han first paghatag han list han GROUP 20, kamo la baya adto ni Gaspang tak close. Maupay nala nagkagroup ghap kita :) Thank you Mi.

To Gaspang, ano paba tak maiyayakan haim? Pirme ko man gin-eexpress tak pasasalamat na naging magsangkay kita, and I always get the same response, "EW" Haha. In spite of all your indecency and cruelness (cruelness??), I know that you CARE for me too. (Na-iimagine ko la tim reaction yana.HAHA).    Aylabyuu Gaspang! :D

To Maye, the super mom hit super kyut na baby! :) Nagkaka-ayon gud kita ky pareho kita mga hubya. Haha!  Cge la ton mai. Kaya nat ini! Matatapos ghap ini. *fingers-crossed* Pagkita nala kita tat mga make up duties :D Thank you for being so nice to me, bisan maram ak maaringasa na talaga ak kaduro danay. (Mingaw kaman gud la. Haha) Mwa!

To Kentzar, an pinaka makarangit ko na groupmate. Pero dire na yana, dire na duro. Haha. Maupay nala kay dire ka nag-iisog bisan gin bibinaraw tas gin-iinaway ko la ikaw. Haha. Kun dire kala balit uyab ni ate Jer, baadaw! HAHAHHA :D Balit Zar, peace kita! Good job han pag report han patho, dire tanan my guts para himuon adto. Proud na proud haim ate Christie! Haha.

To Ate Christie, tak pinaka CLOSE. haha. Thank you han tanan na encouragement na kuhaon ko it case. Dire ko la talaga love it special area (TOXIC!) pero, I will always be willing na mag-assist haim as long as you want me to. 'Til now, nagwowonder la ghap ak kun kay ano dire mo ak ginpapa-upod ha room tim patient kun na VS ka. Haha. Ui, thank you tim mga chika haak everytime nag be-bedside care ak. Maupay nala talaga na nagka-group kita, ky kun waray, dire daw kita magiging super friends! :) But seriously, thank you ate! Dire man talaga tood na "You DON'T CARE", you're just pretending not to care. Magkaiba it hira! HAHA! Alabyu ate Christie! :D

To Marvi, thank you pag pahuram tim BP, thermometer tas kun ano ano nala. Ikaw man gud la it ever loyal na nagdadara hito pirme. Keep it up! Ayaw pagtundog ha akon. Haha! Salamat. Salamat ha imo :)

To Clar, kun mayda man ako nahibaroan haim that is "Pasagde la ito kun busaan ka, basta may case." Ada ak hito nabilib haim balit. Salamat ha? Tanan na imo bulig. Keep believing! Kaya nat ini :)

To Kuya Doms, "All is Well" asya ito tim strength, super CHILL kala. Haha! Baga't dire ka gud apektado hit ka TOXIC tim environment. Haha. Salamat kuya! Chill la! :D

To Ate April, what can I say? Ikaw nat BEST HEAD NURSE. "Ate, my nebulization?", "Ate, aanhon ko adi?" "Ate, blah..blah". Haha. Puro nala ate. Salamat talaga! Tanan na imo bulig, as in TANAN. Damo adto dko kaya usa-usahon :) Yana la kita na sem nagkakilala, but mas naging close pa ak haim more than han iba na kabatch ko na han 4 1/2 years. Thank you for being so nice ha amon tanan! I will never forget adto na nangaon kita tapos ikaw talaga an nagreserve utensils for me, nakakatouch gud adto, guti la, but it means so much to me. SALAMAT Ate! :)

To Ate Malou, for being the leader han group. Tanan gud liwat kami natood basta ikaw nat nagyakan (Remember an moron te?) Haha. Salamat ate, ha imo ko gud nakita it true meaning hit group! Waray traydor, and because of you my UNITY kita. :) Salamat imo pag-resbak, han time na na-imbyerna ak! Haha. Ate ka gud liwat. :) Thank you tanan nim na bulig te! PS. Marasa gud liwat tim chocolate cake! 

To Danica, waray gud mabreak haim, self-employed-SLASH-student nurse pa! Damo tak nabaroan haim in terms of business. Haha. Ano man dan? Positive an PT? HAHAHHA! Grabe! Ikaw nat the best na echusera! HAHA :D Labyuu dan!


Hagee. Kakapoy man ngaen mag usa-usa ha iyo! Haha! THANK YOU GUYS! You've been such a great help ha akon. Dire kamo makuri na ka-trabaho (ka-trabaho talaga!)! Maupay nla na lelessen it ka toxic hit duty, ky ada kamo. Chill la! Karagtatawa la! Bisan nakadamo na kita panbusa-i. Haha. I will surely miss all of you and tanan na mga pagpinanlibak nat. Bwahaha! I love you guys! 

Hello OCTOBER.

Ang bilis lang talaga. October na naman. Good vibes! Good vibes! BTW, katatapos lang namin gumawa ni ate Christie ng requirement for RLE (take note: ONLINE), case presentation namin tomorrow and last day namin as Group 20! *sigh* Mamimiss ko tanan na aringasa, linurong, binuwa, buyayaw, porn, mga hinubya hini na am group. Of course, an cooperation, unity, an pabulig-bulig ha duty, an teamwork, an pangaon, an mga explanation letter (LOL) and tanan tanan nala amon gin-agian together. I'm glad that inspite of all the differences, (my maaringasa, my pirme absent, pirme late, my hubya, my histrionic, paranoid, may wholesome, aw waray ngean wholesome ha amon. Haha) we managed to stay as ONE.

Goodnight. <3

Nakakahiya rin pala!

Hagee! Makarawod. Haha. Napansin ko la na I've been talking a lot about you lately. Ew! I swear, dire na talaga. Dire na pirme, danay nala. :D

Balit, I should stop talking about you or whatever moments we had in the past or kung gano ko kapatay na patay sa abs mo. Nakakahiya. Ngayon ko lang narerealize na parang nagmumukha tuloy akong hindi makapagmove on. 

No blogs. No statuses. No tweets. Nothing. Wala na silang maririnig about you from me. Goodbye! :)

STRANDED.

I know it will never be easy, but I never thought it would be this hard. I would like to stop the hypocrisy for now, cause the truth is, I'm not really moving forward, not even an inch. Here I am, the very same person who cared for you so much and there you are, completely happy with someone else.

I miss you. Like, almost everyday. (And how I wish I could tell you that.)

HOPE && OPTIMISM

So yun, mag-eend na yung September. I know everyone's already worried about the upcoming deliberation which will happen few weeks from now. There were stories circulating in our class na may babagsak pa rin daw. However, it wasn't officially announced so I still hold on to the belief that it's a lie. Expecting the worst things now, won't be of help to any of us. And I guess the best thing that we could do is to try to be optimistic. We have to hope for the best, and sana maging effective lang talaga yung LAW of ATTRACTION. *fingers-crossed*

I feel sad whenever I remember na after next week, something's going to change na. Kanya kanyang buhay na yan after. I'm going to miss everyone. *sigh*

Dx: Paranoia!

I just wanna kill myself for being so sensitive-SLASH-paranoid most of the time! (KCl IV push. STAT!)

Napagsabihan yung group namin knina for not making our requirements. Ni isa walang may gumawa, ako lang, pero incomplete kase hindi talaga namin in-expect na i-cocollect yun. I felt so terrible for making that requirement, parang ang "TRAYDOR"  ko lang naman. Naiinis lang talaga ko kung bakit gumawa pa ko ng requirement! Bakit?!!!

As a consequence, gagawa kami ng case study for our patient to be submitted tomorrow agad. INCOMPLETE requirement, NO duty! Ang saya naman! :)

Australopithecus!

(yung title, parang nag-ccast kalang ng magic spell)

I'm BACK! Gawd! Had a severe abdominal pain. (TAKE NOTE: "SEVERE") Hindi ako nagpapaka-OA! Sobrang sakit nya! Para kang nakipagbreak ng sabay-sabay sa 27 boyfriends na sobrang minahal mo ng ilang dekada! (Yun ang OA) :D

I tried so hard na hindi mamatay, kase ampangit naman kung sa records ko, yung nakalagay na cause of death: abdominal pain lang! Nah! Walang thrill!

*Sigh! Sunday na naman! September na! Ilang tulog nalang Christmas na ulet! Exciting!

Ang saya-saya ko lang talaga today kase nakapag-internet na naman ako after ilang days! Yey! I'm so thankful talaga na sa ngayong panahon ako ipinanganak, e pano kung nung Stone Age ako nabuhay, san ako mag-tweet? sa mga bato?

At sino magbabasa ng mga status ko? SILA?!

If I would've existed million years ago, malamang hindi rin ako magtatagal sa sobrang katamaran ko! Pero somehow, na-appreciate ko pa rin yung way of life nung panahong to, first is hindi nila kailangan pag-aralan yung mga bagay which is not really needed for their survival! Second, sobrang simple ng buhay nila, walang top ten richest man, walang french fries and pepperoni pizza, walang iPad, in short, walang KA-ARTEHAN! Pero, COMPUTER AGE pa rin akooo! D'BEST! \m/

The BREAK-up

"The Break-Up" reminds me of you, us, how we used to be back then. Those stupid fights we had, exchanging awful words towards each other. Hindi ko na nga mabilang kung ilang BULLSH*T na ang tinanggap mo from me! And really, believe it or not, I want to apologize for being such a terrible partner!

I know I didn't play my part so well that it's one of the many reasons why we're in this kind of situation now. We're not even friends, we ignore each other na parang we're in two different planets, worse is, we turned out to be hating each other. Kumusta naman? Honestly, hindi ko na talaga sya nagugustuhan, kase lately, you've been occupying my thoughts. Parang every scene nalang na makita ko sa movie, reminds me of you. And yea, I have this UNRESOLVED feelings for you. I miss you, and how you you made me feel before we became total strangers.

Again, uulitin ko na naman and gusto ko lang ma emphasize na: I MISS YOU BUT I DON'T WANT YOU BACK! 

Hindi naman sa never na talaga, kase 'til now naman ikaw pa rin naman. And 'til now, parang gusto ko pa rin maniwala na one day, just one ordinary day, we'll see each other again, maybe on the streets pag both na tayong nasa Earth. We'll have some catching up, then we'll both realize na, we still want to be together after all. Okay enough, nakokornihan na ko. (FUN FACT: While I am making this blog, pinagdaraanan ko ang matinding sakit ng tiyan! PS: 7/10!)

At dahil sa sakit ng tiyan ko, nakalimutan ko na yung mga sasabihin ko! Bukas nalang, or maybe some other time. Need to get some rest now, this pain is killing me! Bye-bye!

The Hangover

Hey! Who wants to have a drink with us?

One day, I also want to wake up with a tiger in my room, missing finger or tooth (or both), maybe, a new hair style (ayaw la it kalbo, I totally I hate it) Uhm, well I might consider it also for the sake of trying something really kinda WEIRD! Hmm, being married to someone I don't even know is also kind of exciting.

One day, I want to wake up, totally screwed up and not remembering anything that happened the night before! (I promise to bring along my camera, so I'll have something to upload.)

A man doesn't actually need a lifetime, even just one day, one f***ing day to get a life that you want. It maybe, going on a world tour, get wasted, party all day, or even stay in your room and just do nothing (kanya kanyang trip lang yan). Ang sarap mabuhay when you are living your own life, and not the kind of life others want you to have. Totally free. No rules. 

Unfortunately, the kind of life that most of us wants, is inexistent. We have to behave the way other people wants us to. Sometimes, we have to say something totally opposite of what we really feel. That's the human world. The choice is ours to make. 

Be bad, and good guys will tell you, "hey! you suck!". Be good, and bad guys will tell you, "hey! you suck!" ALSO! Cool.

There you have it! So this is my way of saying I totally had fun watching "The Hangover 1 and 2"! Goodnight people, BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE! :)

It's funny. I can't remember anything, but when I woke u, I was kinda happy! -Teddy(#TheHangover2)

Define Optimism!

"EVERY NOW AND THEN - I FALL APART"

Yuuunnn! Haha! Total eclipse of the heart!

Let me start with, I feel so EMPTY tonight! Ngayong gabi lang naman! Ganito talaga ko paminsan-minsan. Nag-iinarte. Normal na sakin yun. Normal na yung maging feeling abnormal minsan! Kainis!

Ok na sana e! Love life? Walang commitment. Pero ang saya! Friends? I spent most of my time with them now kase nga diba single ako! Ok na lahat e. Ang saya, saya, saya na sana to the 10th power! Ang pagiging estudyante ko nalang ang sumisira ng mood ko ngayon. Nkaka-frustrate. Ngayon lang ako naging NEGATIVE ng ganito! Yun bang parang gusto ko ng maniwala na, BELOW AVERAGE ang IQ level ko! Nakaka-praning!

Almost everyone in the class gets good scores, except me! Whoa! Feeling biktima ako dba? OA! Haha. Anyways, yun, so ganon nga! I feel so BOBO! You know?!

Kelangan ko na talaga ng inpirasyon. ASAP! And by inspiration, I don't mean -- KALAGUYO! (Kalaguyo talaga?Haha). Maybe a piece empowering words from someone will do! Pilit na pilit nalang talaga yung paging optimistic ko ngayon! Sobrang kaplastikan na!

Enough Aimz! Baka mahawa na kayo sa kapraningan ko! Pampalabas lang ng sama ng loob. Yun lang! Bukas, Ok na ko!

Magandang umaga sayo!

Hasta La Vista!

Happy na ko ngaun kase wala kana! How's that for an opening? HAHA.

Ilang dekada na palang hindi ikaw ang dahilan ng mga wall posts at group message ko, know why? Kase you don't matter to me anymore. Yes! At dahil dun, parang gusto kong magpaparty everyday, kase finally, gumigising na ko every morning with peace of mind at hindi ikaw ang nasa isip ko. Literally, pain free! And gusto ko rin emphasize, na hindi na ko patay na patay sayo! Kuha mo?

Hindi rin ako galit sayo. Tao ka lang. You have you're imperfections. And I'm trying so hard to understand all of it. Ayokong magbitter-bitteran!

All I hope is sana maging okay ka always, kahit na there's something inside of me who wishes na pagsisihan mo ng bonggang bongga yung immaturity mo! Na sana marealize mo kung gano ka kalaking tanga for not recognizing the value of what we had! Na sanannnnnaaaa, tubuan ka ng marami at malalaking pimples all over your body! Gusto kung yung my PUS at pulang pula. Yung parang bulkan na gusto ng sumabog! Bwahaha!

Honestly, gusto ko pa rin maging okay ka. Palangga ko gad la geap ikaw. Ayeee! Haha. Ayusin mo sarili mo, para next time na magkita ulit tayo, sobrang gwapo mo na. At pwde ba? Wag ka magpapakalbo, kase hindi talaga bagay sayo. Promise!

This may hurt a little bit, pero I have to say this para makompleto naman yung speech ko. Hindi na talaga kita mahal gaya ng dati, and I'm saying this hindi lang para masaktan ka, but it's what I truly feels. I already stopped needing you in my existence. Tinanggal na rin kita sa, things-to-do list ko. In other words, wala ka na sa systema ko. Ok na ko ngaun. I'm so much better without you. Minsan, namimiss parin kita, pero hanggang dun nalang yun. Kung may pagmamahal pa man na natitira ngayon, it's still not enough para balikan kita.

Few months ago,  I was asked, "What have you gained when you lost him?" At sabi ko. "I gained nothing but pain." [Bitter] Pero if I will be asked the same question now? Eto sagot ko: "When I lost him, I gained my self again!" O ha?

Nevertheless, I learned a lot of things from that one year! You made me feel how it is to be truly in love. I never thought that I could love someone, the way I have loved you. Ay grabe! Patay na patay gud liwat ak adto haim! Haha. The joy, excitement and happiness was all worth the pain. I don't regret any of the things I did for you. You're still one of the best things that ever happened to me.

For now, ayaw muna kitang makita kase baka makalimutan ko na hindi na pala kita mahal. But you can still call me if you miss me. [Feeler. Haha]

 I'd love to see you again someday, with your T-square and plates. Successful, responsible, a fully-grown man and loved by the girl truly made for you.

I'm glad you came along. 
THANK YOU!

-- B2. <3

A Free Sprited Homo Sapiens

Stayed in my room for 48hours! Random things keep going in and out of my freaking head. Things like, how will I get that CANON EOS 550D without completely selling my soul to the demons. I've been thinking about money, investments, business and reading "how will I become rich?" articles. Also, I've been browsing photographer's profile, and realizing how I badly want to be just like them. Sigh!

It's in my wish list!

And by the way, I got 3 days sanction for not reporting in school during the first day of classes. And on the second day, I was 27minutes late. Consequently, I have to face her, that woman who terrifies students with her incredibly horrifying gawk!  She told me, that she will be keeping an eye on me, which she also say to every  student who makes a not-so-pleasant impression to her. I wonder, how on earth will she be able to do that.  Well, I will surely be keeping an eye on her, while keeping an eye on me. She scares me. Guess, 90% of the population felt the same sentiments that I have. Hey Ma'am! I'll be as nice as possible, so I won't have to talk to you again. 

 Tomorrow's going to be the start of the true battle. 6 days in school, and I will absolutely be very busy on the things that I hate the most such as waking up early, trying really hard to understand my lessons, and of course pretending to be listening during discussions. However, no matter how I badly dislike these things, I will surely miss this. So for now, I'll try to enjoy every single day of my last  semester in my beloved school. 

Moreover, I'm currently trying to acquire that skill of not being scared to anything or anybody. I want to be - unrestricted, uncontrolled, FREE! Worrying about the things that are nonexistent is completely stupid and useless.


That's all for now! 

The Summer 2011 Escapade

We ended our summer with a blast! My friends and I (by the way we call ourselves, The Castaways), went to one of the most popular tourist attraction in Matalom, Leyte -- The Canigao Island!

Canigao Island

Tacloban to Matalom is a 3hour trip. Fare is P200.00/head via a public utility van (Van Vans). From the highway we rode in a pedicab (P5.00 fare) going to the area where we could rent pump boats going to the Island. Matalom to Canigao Island is a 15minute trip, and we paid P45.00 (back and forth) for the fare.

Pump Boat

It was almost 4:00pm when we reached the Island. We paid P20.00each for the entrance fee. And since there were no more cottages available for us, we opted to rent a tent for P300.00 and a mat for P80.00.

Tent

After setting up everything, we started going around the Island.  Small stores were already established where you can buy foods, drinks, souvenir items and some other things you might need. They use generator as a source of electricity.

The Castaways

So these are some of the few remarkable things we saw in the island.

The lighthouse. However, we didn't saw it's powerful flashing lights.

Summer Romance - Get a room please!

Jellyfish - Don't touch it.

Can't take his eyes off you!

Of course - The fine, white sand!

Corals everywhere!

Sea Urchin - You may now rest in peace!

Canigao Island -- At last! *phew*

And by the way, this trip wouldn't be this FUN without them --- THE CASTAWAYS!

The Splash!

One day, these things will be remembered as one fun-filled summer 2011. And that I would be one of those people who will be proud to say: Oh yes! I've been in Canigao Island!

The happiest people don’t have the best of it. They make the best of everything.

change.

 

            Few weeks from now I will no longer be introducing myself as “Hey guys, it’s me Aimz. 19 years of age.” Wow! It’s just so amazing that I was able to survive the different twists of life for 19 years! It was never easy, I tell you.

            I have survived different tests which made me who I am. Some of them made me better while others, well let’s just say made me a little worse, I suppose.

            As we grow older, we will encounter different circumstances and whether we like or not they will make alterations in our lives. The only choice that’s left is to accept that something’s always changes and we have to be ok with that.

            Seriously, I’m having a hard time dealing with the changes in my life now. Things are not as simple as I thought it is.

            I assumed when I made it through the pains I’ll be stronger. I was wrong. Life has a lot of dramas that could sometimes weaken us. Endless, I should say. And no matter how I’d love to stay strong, I can still associate my name to this word – VULNERABLE.

However, I always believe tomorrow’s going to be a great day. Goodnight fellow believers!

           

Opinyon ko lang naman!

Sa totoo lang hindi ko mgets kung bakit ang daming galit kay Willie Revillame because of that march 12 episode. First is, it wasn't his idea na maging ganon yung talent ng bata. Second, is that hindi nya pinipilit sumayaw ung bata ha? everytime pinapatugtog ung music, sumasayaw nlang yung batang yun. Kung mka comment nman yung mga tao feeling nila e ang BAIT BAIT nila. Perfect? ganon? Ang OA nyo ha? nakakaloka! my pa Republic Act pa kayong nalalaman! Otot nyo Pink! Phew! Nkakahigh Blood! haha. 

 

ah kaya nman pala. umiiyak na yung bata e!

Kasi umiyak ung bata kaya ang dami ng galit sa Host? Oh I get it. Kase umiiyak yung bata kaya naghahanap kayo ng sisihin? E kahit wala namang kinalaman yung host sa talent nya! Magalit kayo sa nagturo sa batang yan kung pano sumayaw ng ganyan! Hay! Nu ba yan? At pwde ba? Republic Act blahblah, wag to yung problemahin nyo, may mas seryosong problema ung Pilipinas. Eto o! 

 

Gawan nyo to ng paraan kase mas malaking
problema to kesa kay Willie Revillame.

POWER!

Few weeks ago, I met EMPIRE. So I'm into network marketing now. Little by little, natutunan ko na sya through the help of my ever supportive uplines. We'll one more thing na nagustuhon ko pa sa empire is that it's not just a business it's a bunch of crazy people which I could consider as a family.

 If someone will ask me kung bakit pumasok ako sa ganitong industry? Gusto kong yumaman e! Ung tipong kahit maubos mo ung 1million in a day hindi ka prin maghihirap. Haha. Sa totoo lang gusto ko lang naman ng ganito:

It's what keep's me motivated! POWER!

magiging akin ka rin :)

worry-FREE.

Had some chit-chats with Chel and Juy kanina at Tops. We were supposed to be studying for our upcoming exams. I had fun talking with them about our misfortunes and troubles in the past years of our college life. And from that conversation, I realized whoaaaa! Kinaya ko pala lahat ng yun?

Also, ok na pala ko. I don’t feel the same pain that I felt few months ago. However, I’m still on the process of boosting my self esteem again, after it dropped off from failing to pass curative and rehabilitative 2. Given the fact that people usually associates the word “irregular” from “stupid” “idiot” or other related humiliating terms which in other words regard me as a brainless lassie having an IQ score of 23 or less. And we Filipinos call it “bobo”.

No matter what they think about me or with my fellow irregulars, I don’t care. And I don’t believe them.

So for now, I’m enjoying my remaining worry-free days to do whatever unnecessary things that pops out in any space that I have in my freaking head.

STUNS,

Aimz.

Who stole my magic?

LOVE? oh well. I will always be fascinated by it's ability to alter our lives. It moves mysteriously that even the most intelligent people won't be able to explain how it works. To be in love is like to experience a whole new world of magic with that someone. Everything seems perfect. Endless.

However, building a good relationship is the hardest part. That's probably the reason why status would turn out to be: It's complicated!. It really is. It takes a lot of sacrifices, patience, understanding, time, effort and all. When we are into serious relationship, we try our very best to keep things working. Yet, it fails. And just like what the song says, here it comes, the hardest part of all. Probably, it's one of the most painful things you will ever feel. Very tragic. Unbearable.

So for those who are still on the process of grieving for losing someone you consider as your world, I copied some tips on how to mend that slightly cracked hollow muscular organ inside you.

Who Stole My Magic?

by Jenny Manuel

(http://www.facebook.com/pages/Who-stoLe-my-Magic/150359638336750?v=app_2373072738#!/pages/Who-stoLe-my-Magic/150359638336750)

1. Admit that the relationship is over.

Say it aloud to yourself in the mirror, or write about it in detail to a close friend or family member who knew you and your ex as a couple. Telling someone else, if you haven't already, is a sign that you admit that breakup is real...

2. And then cry, shout, kick the walls, hit a punching bag--do whatever you need to do to release all negative energy smoldering inside you..

3. Think about whom among your friends or family members are going to be the most gentle and supportive of you during this period and then ask them for their help.

Be honest about how you feel--talk to them and don't be afraid to cry. It's okay to be a wreck--for a while.

(Chapter 1) Or why you need a friend with the patience ofa saint?

The days and weeks immediately following a difficult breakup are always the most difficult and the most critical.

After the shock of what has just happened (your life just ending...at least you feeling that way), denial and gut-wrenching grief tend to follow hot on shock's heels. Every waking moment will be filled with thoughts of the ex -- how to get back with him, how to say sorry to him, how to kill him.

"DON'T EVER BE SORRY FOR BEING SAD. AND DON'T APOLOGIZE FOR CRYING , WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH IS COMPLETELY NORMAL AND HEALTHY."

(Chapter 2) Or why asking 'What if' can drive you around the bend?

"DON'T BOTHER ASKING WHY."


When trying to fathom the reasons for the breakup I managed to narrow it down to two possible explanations:

1.) The ex was in fact, wholly evil; surely only the spawn of Satan would ruin a girl's three big occasions of the year in one go;

2.) "He's just too cheap to buy you two presents in a month. You'll see. He'll be back in January."

Left without answers I decided it was best to not try to make sense of the situation.

Asking someone to explain why they don't love you, or won't love you or can't love you is like asking someone to explain why the wind blows.

(Chapter 3) Or why listening to sad songs is really bad idea?

"Whatever you do, don't listen to any sad songs or music.
It will only make you feel worse!"


The point is that music can be a very powerful tool because it often speaks directly to our souls. But it can be just as powerful a tool for healing as it is for wallowing.

(Chapter 4) Or why treating yourself to a makeover is good for the soul

A difficult breakup is very bruising to one's ego. After breakup you couldn’t help feeling that you had lost some of your spark.


"Beauty may only be skin deep and true beauty might lie in the soul, but it doesn’t hurt to have your outsides looking good when your insides are badly bruised."


MAKEOVER being an enhancement rather than a radical transformation --it was about rediscovering the best bits and making the most of them.

True friends will be able to see beyond the sad eyes and cheerless countenance to recognize your finest assets and can offer honest advice on the best ways to highlight them...

(Chapter 5) Or how you shouldn't become bitter and jaded?

After the initial pain and trauma of having your heart broken pure, unadulterated anger and rage set in. Suddenly revenge scenarios keep playing in your head like very bad B-movies on perpetual rerun--the one where your ex turns up on your doorstep in tears, begging for forgiveness; the one where you're looking fabulous and run into your ex with your ex with your gorgeous new man in town; or the one where you run over your ex, with a bus or a basic themes running through them--revenge and triumph.

The feelings of anger and resentment are normal; they're simply part of hate grieving process. "The real trick is not to let the anger take residence in your heart and consume you."

(Chapter 6) Or how travel can help you to ease the pain?

When you're heartbroken, the thought of hastily packing your bags and running away suddenly feels very tempting.

"Travel, go somewhere you've never been. You need to get away from your immediate surroundings and realize that there is a huge world out there with endless possibilities and billions of people that you've never met."

(Chapter 7) Or how moving furniture around can do you a world of good?

"When you lock yourself in your room-- miserable and weepy -- the space picks up the negative energy and your room becomes a depressing place to be. You need to let out the sadness and allow some new air in."

(Chapter 8) Or why it's time to find a new passion?

There was one point in the aftermath of a breakup where your ex was the last thing you thought of before going to sleep at night and the first thing that entered your mind when you woke up in the morning. His rude and unwelcome intrusion into your thoughts drove you insane.


"Trying to prevent yourself from thinking about something is pointless---

FIND A NEW PASSION..."

(Chapter 9) Or how taking a step back can help you see the bigger picture.

Why is it that the memories of how they made us laugh are so much more vivid than the memories of how they made us cry?

"Sometimes, if you are having difficulty coming to terms with something, all you need to do is to take a step back and look at the bigger picture."

(Chapter 10) Or why it's important to get out there and meet new people.

One of the hardest things about a breakup is dealing not only with loss of a lover but oftentimes with a "bestfriend", a guaranteed movie date and travelling partner all in one. After a breakup it isn't unusual to look at your diary to find it looking a little, well...bare.

Sometimes, when deeply involved with someone, we have a tendency to slip into default Couple Mode. Signs you've entered this not-so-desirable state:

* You make less of an effort to see old friends and make new ones.

* You can't remember the last time you went on a Girl's Night out or why you might want to.

* You find it impossible to make social appointments without first checking the "joint diary".

* You can't commit to movie dates with friends because you promised your partner you'd watch the movie with him.

This is why new couples often find themselves slipping away from their friends, especially from single friends--the dynamics of socializing, and indeed the will to socialize at all, can often be affected by whether one is single or part of a couple.

Whatever pains you are feeling right now, it's temporary. Unless, you let it stay in your heart. Move on. All I hope is for you to be fine always. Thank you for the time you've spent reading this blog. God Bless.

 Lots of Love,
Aimz.

I am Sam REF.

Just finished watching I am Sam. The story was really touching. It made me realized that being able to love another doesn’t mean we have to acquire that high level of intelligence. Of course, we don’t need it.

We don’t have to master the theory of the behavior of gases that assumes heat is a process of energy transfer and the internal energy of a gas is the total energy of its particles which is the kinetic theory. Uh, cut it out please.

Loving someone is all about being patient. It’s all about caring, listening and trying to understand what you cannot understand. Loving doesn’t focus on one’s self. Rather it is centered towards other people.  For love to be true, it must be selfless. Otherwise, it’s fraud.

Sometimes, we tend to judge those mentally-challenged individuals. We are insensitive towards their feelings. We often forget that they are humans too. They can feel. And like any other human beings they are capable of loving.

It’s so sad to know that sometimes, the world is not fair to them. I guess life has always been unfair. I’m not being bitter, just stating some fact. A very dramatic reality.

That’s life anyway. The only choice that we have is to deal with it. However, we should be reminded that we are not alone with this. We have God. We just have to let Him lead the way.

boredom!

Ayaw na tlagang papigil ng ulan. hindi ko nga alam kung saan gumimik ung araw, sa sobrang pageenjoy ay nakalimutan na ata ung mga responsibilidad nya sa mundo. Hay!

Feel ko mgblog. Pero wala rin naman akong gusto ikwento. Buhay ko? Suz. Wala naman akong masyadong makabuluhang nagagawa lately. Kung hindi ako nakababad sa internet ay siguradong tulog ako.

Balak ko sanang isearch ung reasons kung bakit ayaw kaming tantanan ng ulan para lang ba may makabuluhan naman akong ikwkwento sa inyo. Kaso bigla akong tinamad. Haha. Wag nalang.

just some ordinary day.

               Woke up at 9am. I have to. Went to SOPHIE to pick up my orders, school after. Had lunch with Joco, then we played dota with the girls and boomliki. We had dinner after that.

                When I arrived at my boarding house, I had some catching up with my friends, talking about how they spent their break and other stuff. These are the moments I will always cherish. It’s just so sad that we will no longer be able to have that long talks soon. Some will graduate. We’ll get busy focusing on our chosen fields. Some would get married. No more DOTA game. No more screaming. No more calling of funny names toward each other. I tell you, these are the best moments in life. Moments wherein you’ll get to laugh so hard because of nothing or going crazy over the things that only you and your friends knew.

                I pity those people who don’t find time to laugh and do crazy things once in a while. They’re missing a lot. Oh well maybe, it’s what makes them happy.

                I live life to the fullest. I don’t want making regrets. It’s of no use. It only makes me miserable. If I fail to do something, then let it be. Other options might be available, so why not grab them and make the most of it? There’s just no sense in thinking about the “what if’s”.

                Life is unpredictable. We might not be here tomorrow. So, live well!

                Have a fun ride in dreamland we all deserve to rest! Good Night. 

Stop regretting the things that once made you smile.